I see myself in you
I admit it – I used to treat my sister quite badly. I ignored her and most of the time, I just could not talk in a nice tone when I converse with her.
My fault, I know. When I look back and analyse, I realised that I was angry every time I talked to her because she reminded me of myself all the time. Her shape, her voice, her style and what-not. I did not like what I saw in her because I saw myself in her. I did not like to see myself because I despised myself.
I only learnt to embrace and love my own sister very much later when I found myself loved in Christ. Of late, I find that I get quite worked up when I talked to her too. I know it is really bad.. but I sometimes cannot help it. I am hard on her because I want the best for her. I am concerned about her, that is why I use such a harsh tone. I am sorry, I should have had a better approach.
Just now, after seeing her latest photos, I saw that she has gained a significant amount of weight. It was obvious and it showed really clearly. I told her straight in her face. You need to lose weight. We have two expensive machines at home. You must, must work hard. Do not be like me. You don’t have an underlying medical condition. We argued. I did not want her to only think about which is the best weight loss pills to take. I want her to be motivated and disciplined to shed off the pounds.
I know, I know.. who am I to tell her when I myself struggle so much in my own weight problem? That’s the problem.. I see too much of me in her.. and I do not like the picture. Oh well, I guess after all, she is my own blood sister.
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