Of hope and love

This blog has been on a rocky voyage for the past few days. I am totally not in control on the technical side, so it has been just “no-blogging” days squished in between.

So many things happeend!

I can’t even talk about everything now. There goes my inspirations and reflections!

Right.

Let’s start with a ‘revelation’. It is more of a realisation. A few ideas just suddenly popped up in my head and became crystal clear. I realised that the reality may hurt this way. Some things do not turn out as nicely as we hoped. We can always dream, but the reality is still harsh.

I just woke up from an emotional tangled ‘dream’. It took me a good few months to come to term to what I believe is reality. I am no longer in denial. I feel liberated. These past few days, some random ideas just went through my head over and over again. I realised that I cannot bear living with such fakery my entire life, so it is better to remain joyful minus the struggles.

Life is short. Make it sweet.

I think I am starting to look a little older than 16.

Which is good, I hope.

Sorry for being so random and coded today. I just suddenly lost my blogging touch for the past few days. At this late hour, I feel rather tired as well. A little not used to the fact that I am not talking like usual to someone. Funny but I still feel good. Maybe it was the M&S Christmas coffee. Or the one hour spent in the gym.

I’ve been drinking a lot of coffee. Get good water filters to make sure that your coffee (or tea) is clear. Those filter jugs are good enough. I invested in one and now I feel much more confident with my beverages.

I kinda like this ‘Yue Ai Ye Nan Guo’ by Wu Ke Qun. Whoever is that. I have no idea how the song end up in my collection. I just happened to random loop the player and this song struck me.

Another random album I find myself drawn to is Taro Hasake’s Classical Tuning. I am the last person to listen to this type of genre, but I just found myself drawn to the music. Told you I am random lately!

Like.. really random!

I guess sometimes I just like to be the people pleaser, peacemaker and what-not. At times, I feel tired at my self-professed role. I give in and keep up too much. When I fail, I feel miserable. I find that many things which are impossible with men are only possible with God. I raise my white flag!

Irony is part of my life. Amazing but sometimes plain ironic!

Right.

Random and senseless post I have.

I miss………………………………..fill in the blank…………………..

Comments

i guess when we got time to think about stuff, we will realise things, if not we dont think about it.

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Posted by: ueiying | November 27th, 2009 10:54

ur pic is nice ler. u put eye liner?

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lynnx01 reply on November 27th, 2009 8:00 pm:

Yes! Hahaha, I remember you taught me how to put.. that was the kickstart. I use the pencil one though..

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Posted by: ueiying | November 27th, 2009 11:09

“kuey chap”

its random watttttt lol

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lynnx01 reply on November 27th, 2009 8:03 pm:

Random!! I rather.. errmmm.. Sarawak Laksa!

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Posted by: Fritz | November 27th, 2009 11:16

you miss shoobie an heiq!!!!!! i love them sooo much! sooo cute=)

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Posted by: LingDi | November 28th, 2009 00:47

miss kuech chap also. n fried kueh tiaw, n roti canai, n kolo mee, fried rice, n pisang goreng, n those fried stick things u buy at tamu, n those colorful kueh things…

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Posted by: Lawrence | November 30th, 2009 13:38